Title: Once In a Blue Moon, Chapter 1: Bon Voyage
Author: Webcrowmancer (webcrowmancer at hotmail.com)
Pairing: Will/Jack
Rating: NC-17 for adult themes, language and m/m sexual content (that would be slash and smutty thoughts, as well as rampantly gay lovin' fluff 'n' stuff)
Summary: 'You're a pirate after all, lad. Stolen my heart, true enough.' Will joins the crew of the Black Pearl and learns the true meaning of the word 'Matelotage'.
Disclaimer: I wonder what The Mouse Inc. would say, considering they are
among one of the corporations to award gay-couple employees with domestic
partner benefits. ;-)
Feedback: Yes. :-)
Author's Notes: Matelotage - French for Seamanship.
Also the unique name applied to the bond between two 'sailors' (pirates) in
the Caribbean; they shared everything, including wives, assets, plunder, and
bed. Probably the closest thing to recognized gay marriage the historical
world has seen beyond the Theban Band - brothers/lovers in arms.
Lucky for us slashbucklers, it's an absolute fact and historical precedent.
;)
Will caught up
with Jack Sparrow as the pirate and his
straggling, hung-over companions wove their way
down to where their longboat was secured.
"Jack," he called, quickly striding along the
pier with his satchel. "Jack
Sparrow."
Jack turned and did a double
take as Will joined them. "Well, well. Young
William Turner. Haven't we been here
before?"
Will glanced about them, at the
surrounding tableau where he and Jack had
departed Tortuga before, on the Interceptor,
after sizing up their first crew. "Indeed, this
very spot."
"Still got the hat. Good."
Jack grinned at him. "Thought maybe you'd given
it up for the hammer and tongs. Thought you'd be
getting wedded and bedded by now. What, did the
old man change 'is mind about your suitability,
then?"
Will stifled a smile. "Elizabeth
is fine, as is her father. We're engaged. We're
to be married next year, come February. Governor
Swann agreed we needed time to settle things
properly. Arrangements to be made, and all.
Listen, you're leaving; may I join
you?"
Jack considered him, looking him up
and down. "For as long as it takes to reach the
Pearl."
Will realized Jack was in a hurry
to be on his way. Damn the man's penchant for
rum. If he'd been sober the previous night in
the tavern, Will would have approached him then.
But Jack had been sloshed. Completely. And he'd
not had an opportunity to approach any sooner.
He hadn't known that Jack would be sailing out
so soon. He'd only just caught up with them in
time. And the hell of it was, he had been
waiting around in Tortuga for weeks, after
learning that the Black Pearl might indeed be
stopping there to pick up more crew and
supplies.
He sighed to himself as he sat
down in the longboat with the others. Jack was
sitting opposite him.
A hand on his knee
made him look up in surprise as Jack leaned
forward. He'd not forgotten Jack's tendency to
lean into people's personal space, but he still
wasn't quite prepared for it. Something about
the gesture seemed too intimate, despite the
close quarters of the longboat, and Will stifled
a flinch as he simultaneously tried to sort out
the idea that it didn't bother him enough, that
in fact Jack's seemingly friendly move took his
welcome for granted.
"So was it that you
were a eunuch after all, then?" Jack's grin also
took too much for granted.
Will wanted to
wipe it off his face. But he was hardly on safe
ground, his previous association with Jack
Sparrow notwithstanding. He couldn't afford to
rise to Jack's inane jibes. He swallowed and
drew himself up.
"I'm man enough," Will
said earnestly. "But apparently not pirate
enough, according to Elizabeth. I failed to meet
her standards as a seaman, a brigand and a
scoundrel." Will gave Jack a dry, self-mocking
smile. "She said she wouldn't marry a man who'd
never sailed beyond the Spanish Main and had no
knowledge of the world."
"So the lady was
expecting a pirate and instead found her
blacksmith not quite impulsive enough for her
liking. And you've come to me for lessons," Jack
surmised, shrewdly.
"In a word, yes."
Will wasn't sure how well this would go down.
After all, Jack Sparrow had hardly been
impressed with either his seamanship or his
attitude during their venture to regain
Elizabeth. And Jack's ship.
"Piracy isn't
taught by pirates, lad, but life."
"Life
aboard the Black Pearl, Captain," Will carefully
agreed, with a nod. "Living aboard your ship,
and under your command, among
pirates."
Jack's eyes narrowed.
"Well-said, but it's hardly enough to endear you
to me crew. They won't take kindly to a lovelorn
land-lover who's not yet proven his worth."
Jack wasn't playing and Will realized
his interview had begun in earnest. "So give me
the chance to prove my worth, Captain. You'll
not regret it."
Will had started out
addressing Jack formally to make a point, but
now he suddenly found he had to rethink his
approach. If he failed to meet Jack's estimation
of a worthy crewman now, his chances of being
accepted by the rest of the crew were nil. Yet,
Jack was probably the one man aboard who would
be willing to accept him at all, even if just
for sentimental reasons, with him being
Bootstrap Bill's son.
Jack had turned
away and was regarding the ship with a serious
gaze as they approached the Black Pearl.
"I won't let you down," Will promised in
a low voice, acutely aware of the other men
sitting in the boat with them. "We stood
together before. And you know my sword-arm is
good. Give me just one chance, Jack.
Please."
Jack's dark eyes were a little
too deep, unfathomable and holding some strange
consideration Will couldn't begin to wonder at,
as he held Will's gaze. He said nothing,
however, and Will began to grow uncomfortable,
wondering if Jack considered him not worth the
trouble, or the risk. Instead, a knowing smiled
crept onto Jack's face as he continued to regard
Will. Will bit his lip, wondering if he was the
one actually taking something for granted, such
as their friendship. Finally Will looked away,
willing to wait for the answer.
Of
course, Jack seemed to take that as his cue.
"We'll see, won't we?"
Will glanced back
at him sharply, as it returned to him that he
was, after all, among pirates.
The sun
was bright on the water as the longboat neared
the Black Pearl. Will was unaccountably struck
by how glad he was to see her again. He felt it
as an uplifting swell inside that nearly made
him giddy.
An almost inaudible chuckle
reached his ears. He glanced over at Jack who
was watching him. "Good Turner blood," Jack
commented quietly.
And then they were
preparing to board, they were climbing upwards,
with Jack going first, and the other men after
him. Will had no chance to reply or ask further.
Once on board the Pearl, Jack departed with the
others and Will was left standing alone on the
deck, wondering if he'd be made to swim back to
shore.
He stood aimlessly on the deck
for a while, shifting his heavy satchel from one
arm to the other, watching as every crewmember
aboard seemed preoccupied with busily preparing
to make way, ignoring him.
Soon though,
he caught sight of Jack returning to him, and he
found himself tensing expectantly as Jack came
to stand beside Will where he still
waited.
"All right, William Turner," Jack
replied, a hint of meaning in the way he spoke
the name. "I've had a word with some of the
others, and you'll receive an equal share of all
takings. We have decided to make for Madagascar.
It's very possible we'll see action along the
way. You're willing to place your sword with
ours?"
"I am," Will said.
"Good.
Can't promise that we'll be back in the vicinity
of Port Royal come February, but we'll try. Got
unfinished business there, as it
is."
Will considered him, bewildered.
"Unfinished business?"
Jack nodded.
"Managed to take most of the treasure from Isla
de Muerta to another location, but it's still
painfully vulnerable. Can't have some other
light-fingered bastard helping himself to my
stash, now can I? And Will," Jack added, leaning
close to him. "Best you stay close to Gibbs and
the others as remember you, as they knows you
right enough, from before. Some of my crew are
new faces and they don't look kindly on the
British - could be trouble, what with you being
a Port Royal citizen."
Will glanced about
them, regarding some of the men who were
preparing the sails to make way. "You mean
-"
Jack nodded. "Marooners. Ex-slaves,
Cimarrons seeking better than the pressgang had
to offer. Good men. Good fighters, pirates all.
But motivated by more than a desire to line
their pockets, if you take my
meaning."
Will took a breath. "Very well.
I'll watch my step."
"Will, son, you're
going about this all the wrong way," Jack said,
putting an arm around his shoulders and giving
him a friendly shake. "When I tell you there's
something to fear, you're supposed to tell me to
take the long swim. If I tell you there's men
aboard who'd gut you for loose change, you're
supposed to laugh and say something," Jack waved
his other hand about loosely. "…Foolish. Like,
'let them try, do or die'. I've seen you with a
blade, boy. You can hold your own. Or you could
do what I do. Smile." Jack beamed at him. His
face fell. "On second thought, don't. Leave 'at
one to me. You start smiling at 'em, they're
likely to think you're looking to get
hitched."
Will sucked in a breath and
said, "You want me to lie. Put on a brave
face."
"No," Jack said, impatient with
his decency. "I want you to bluff. There's a
difference."
"A lie is a lie, however
it's told," Will commented.
"You'd make
an excellent Quartermaster, young William. But
you're still young, young William, for all that,
and Gibbs is me Quartermaster now that
Anamaria's left. Which just leaves the position
of First Mate, and I'm not sure you qualify as
me First Mate, do you now? So, what -can- you
do?"
"I can fight, and I can win. No
quarter," Will said, sincerely.
Jack
grimaced. "Best not be saying that until you've
seen your first battle at sea. Quarter is
sometimes dearly precious."
"I've already
experienced my first battle at sea," Will
reminded him. "Aboard a stol-" Will caught
himself. "A commandeered ship, with a pirate
crew that I sailed with out of Tortuga, with
you." He met Jack's eye. "That battle… You were
in the brig, apparently, at the time." He meant
it as a reminder that Jack hadn't actually taken
part much in that battle…and it was aboard his
own ship. But then Jack's next words took him by
surprise.
Jack nodded. "So I was, no
thanks to you."
Will stopped, dead.
"What?"
Jack turned, looking out to sea.
"You were willing enough to leave me to
Barbossa's kindness when it suited
you."
Will was paralyzed with the
realization that he had, indeed, deserted Jack
in his desperation to see Elizabeth removed from
Barbossa and his crew. His own glib reply came
back to haunt him, when Gibbs had asked after
Jack's whereabouts on their return to the
Interceptor: "He fell behind."
The
well-placed strike of an oar had ensured Jack
wouldn't be able to use Will as his 'leverage',
yet now he realized that Jack would have done
anything to get back the Pearl from Barbossa,
same as his own desire to regain Elizabeth - and
had even seen to it that Elizabeth had been
safe… where it was most convenient for his own
plans of course, but then… How else were they to
have had anything to deal with Barbossa, in any
case? He suddenly saw it from Jack's point of
view, the entire incident, and realized,
thunderstruck, that Jack thought he'd not just
been stupid, but incredibly stupid - and
untrustworthy as well.
After all,
Barbossa had ended up capturing him and
marooning both Jack and Elizabeth on the island
he'd marooned Jack on before.
He'd hoped
Jack might have overlooked this matter, as he'd
saved Jack from the gallows upon their return to
Port Royal. He'd been willing, in fact, to stand
between Norrington's blade and the condemned
pirate, merely on the principle that it was the
right thing to do.
His silence and delay
in answering Jack didn't go unnoticed,
however.
Jack tilted his head and
regarded him, quietly saying, "Any man who falls
behind. I do recall. But you know, there's
another little saying and it goes something like
this: any man that falters upon boarding another
ship endangers the rest of the crew. Now, aboard
the Pearl, Moses' Law applies, unless the
company's in a good mood, and if I've got me
rum, and everyone's a happy little crewman with
his share of the booty when all's said and done.
Savvy?"
"I'll not falter, so no. Yes. I
mean, savvy. I do. Uh," Will looked up with a
puzzled frown. "Moses' Law?"
"Forty
lashes, minus one." Jack raised his brows. "But
methinks saving me own life is fair exchange.
Enough to forgo the Prophet's Threat and speak
on your behalf to any who might question your
being aboard, should any unpleasantness arise.
Question is, what's in it for me?"
Will
considered him. He was out of options. He'd
asked Jack for one chance and now here he was
asking him for a favor and another chance
besides. He still owed it to Jack to prove his
trustworthiness. Then again, he was not a
murderer. A freeman did not necessarily take a
life needlessly, although a pirate might. And
yet again, he'd not seen Jack or any of his
company ever take a life unnecessarily either.
Barbossa and his undead crew had been an
entirely different sort, undead or not. And Jack
had lost the Pearl to Barbossa before, in the
mutiny, because of his willingness to negotiate.
He couldn't see the man as bloodthirsty.
Besides, there was the Code.
Swallowing,
he answered, "My sword is yours, and I'll lay
down my life for yours, against any who might
threaten you. Or the Pearl," he added. "Or her
company and crew." At Jack's still expectant
expression, he thought quickly, and then
continued, "Or any that we might
threaten."
Jack relaxed. "Excellent.
Welcome aboard, Will." Jack grasped his arm, by
the elbow, and Will returned the greeting, the
clasp of a brother in arms, and Will realized in
that moment that Jack had already decided he
could stay, probably before they'd even left the
pier. They were just sealing their agreement.
Will turned, looking up at the sails
billowing in the sea breeze and the new rigging.
"Hasn't been long, has it?"
Jack grinned,
looking out to sea. "Long enough."
It had
only been six months since Jack had fallen over
the edge of the wall into the sea, out of his
life.
Truth be told, though he would
follow Mr. Cotton's involuntary example and cut
out his tongue before admitting it to Jack, it
hadn't exactly been Elizabeth who'd wished that
he seek out Captain Jack Sparrow once again. In
fact, Elizabeth had finally put her foot down
and ordered him to get the sea out of his blood
before she'd marry him. She'd insisted that he
was worse than useless, unless he'd satisfied
his distressing contradiction about his choices
in life: freedom, or marriage.
Although
she'd stated she well understood his feelings,
she wasn't going to be a lonely wife and
probable widow to a man who left once the babes
began arriving. It was far better that he return
to her in a while, after he'd satisfied himself
as to how much of his father still boiled within
him - now that Bootstrap Bill's legacy had
awakened in his son. She would
wait.
Marriage, indeed. He'd begun to
understand why grooms become nervous closer to
the set date… But for all that, Jack was married
to his Black Pearl, and life as a pirate was a
marriage of a different sort. And there was
always the gamble that Elizabeth would decide
before the year was out that she'd accept
Commodore Norrington's proposal after all, if
she got tired of waiting or finally realized
that marrying a blacksmith was out of the
question. The life of a pirate's wife… For
that's what he was now. A pirate.
Perhaps
it was worth it. He was committed, out of sheer
curiosity, to see whether or not it was indeed
something worth giving up after nearly a year's
passing. And there was no better ship he could
remember ever having laid eyes on than this one.
Nor a better captain.
"Will we be
returning to the Spanish Main, then, in nine
months time?"
"Most
probably."
Will smiled. "Then we have an
accord."
"We do indeed," Jack grinned
back at him. "After all, it was thanks to you I
was returned to me fine ship, here."
"She
is a fine ship," Will said respectfully, the
reverence in his voice not a bluff at
all.
"A fine lass indeed, to let you go,"
Jack said, meaningfully, leaving Will no mistake
that Jack had already divined the truth about
why Will was standing on his ship begging to
become a pirate.
"She's taking a chance
on me, just as you are. You were right," Will
admitted, aghast at how easy it was to say it.
"It's the Turner blood. My blood."
Jack
smiled at him. "Don't worry, lad. I won't be
expecting you to shed any of it on my account.
We're blood brothers already, after all." And he
held up his hand, the faintest trace of a white
scar lining his palm where his own blade had cut
to redeem the Aztec coin Jack had pilfered in
the cave.
Will held up his own, and
clasped Jack's left hand in his, where his own
scar lay, and pressed the two scars together.
"All is forgiven, then?"
Jack answered
carefully, "If it weren't, you'd not be standing
here now, would you?" Jack's sharp reply was
delivered in a mild tone, but Will caught it
nonetheless.
He met Jack's eyes. "I
know."
Jack stared back at him and Will
suddenly became aware again that although they
had an accord, and they'd renewed the honor
between them from their first venture together,
it was an entirely new situation.
And
for some bizarre reason, he was growing
uncomfortable to still be holding Jack's hand.
And Jack's eyes were looking through him, seeing
right down into the very bare parts of him,
where even he was afraid to look.
Jack's
eyes were so brown, they were nearly black. Will
felt a strange, leaping heat course through him,
settling somewhere in his lower belly. It wasn't
unpleasant, and that was the most disturbing of
all.
The call of anchor's aweigh reached
them, breaking his rapport with Jack, for Jack
then clapped a hand on his shoulder and said,
"We'll have us a little chat later, Will. Things
to see to just now, you understand. Even a ship
as fine as this one don't just run
herself."
Will watched as Jack left him
standing again, watching the pirate
depart.
He stared down at the white scar
in his left palm. Did Jack truly see a pirate in
him? And had Jack glimpsed what he himself had
only just grasped?
He hoped not. The
stain of heat that spread over his face was
delayed, but all too real now and, he knew, all
too visible. He wanted Jack to approve of him,
to consider him a good man. A good pirate. Like
his father.
God, it was humiliating,
actually. To know, to have to admit, that Jack
was right. Had been right all along.
And
to realize that his heart still was not his own.
It had found roost here, with the Black Pearl,
with a pirate crew. With Jack Sparrow.
It
galled him to know that being once more reunited
with Jack, to be feeling that edge, that keen
zest for life and the thoughts in the man's
heat-addled mind that were probably more tangled
than before… To know that it was invigorating
like nothing else had been since their first
adventure half a year ago.
Will's spirits
sank, even as the Black Pearl moved swiftly out
of Tortuga's waters and beyond. Africa was a
long ways away, and Will realized it was going
to be a long journey indeed. For he'd just
discovered what Elizabeth had already known.
He'd loved Elizabeth for such an
extensive number of years. Attaining her was
almost an anti-climax. The truth of his father
and his heritage haunted him, and had remained a
shadow between them ever since their return to
Port Royal. It had tainted his love for her, and
cast such a depressing shadow, in fact, that
Will had been surprised to find himself
ruminating consistently over the possibility of
growing bored with an unending life of toiling
in the smithy and just… running.
Anywhere, in any direction. Towards
anything but what was expected of him. Despite
his love of working metal, of crafting what he
knew were the finest swords and watching their
beauty shaped out of fire by his own artistry
and skill, it was mostly a thankless task. Most
still considered him merely Master Brown's
apprentice. Only Commodore Norrington had
actually ever revealed he knew Will to be the
true master, working while Brown snored the
afternoons away. And there was Port Royal, where
he'd always felt at home.
He'd expected
to have to resolve the contradiction of his
pirate blood and his life as a metal-worker. But
ever since his adventure with Jack, rescuing
Elizabeth and discovering his father's legacy of
piracy, he'd felt confined, constrained and tied
down by the looks that the townspeople gave him.
The Governor's daughter. A blacksmith.
A
pirate.
***
"Jack," Gibbs said,
from behind him.
Jack turned from where
he was looking out to sea. He could feel the
horizon calling him and it was nearly a physical
wrench inside to have to look away.
"That
Turner boy's going to be a problem, if we're
going all the way on African
account."
"Most probably," Jack agreed.
"I'm counting on it."
"He won't be very
happy when he finds out what you've got
planned."
Jack grinned widely. "That is
something I'm looking forward to. Therefore, I
forbid you - and meself - to tell him until
we've gone too far for him to turn
back."
"Turn back?"
"In one of the
longboats."
Gibbs muttered, "Aye, but I
gets the feeling with 'im that there's no such
words as 'too far'."
"We'll have to see,
won't we?" Jack said, with a smile.
"Then you won't be letting him off at
Toliara?"
"Port Elizabeth, maybe," Jack
laughed.
"Aye," chuckled Gibbs. Then he
shook his head. "It'll be bad, going around the
Horn. Bad luck to have a man held against his
will aboard, through those waters."
"He's
a good lad, and eager to prove himself. He'll
do."
"What position will you be givin'
him, then? You can't keep him too low; the
others'll eat him alive, quicker than
sharks."
Jack considered Gibbs. "We don't
need a First Mate, do we?"
"No; that we
don't."
"Perfect." Jack shrugged. "He can
be First Mate. And being Bootstrap's son will
keep them off, as well."
"So he's
off-limits then." Gibbs stated it but it was a
question that Jack had been
expecting.
This time, Jack's smile was
more akin to that of a shark's, himself.
"Terribly off-limits. And be sure you spread
that one, too."
"It's for the best,
really," Gibbs agreed, giving Jack a look that
Jack wasn't sure he liked very much at all. And
then Gibbs clarified, "With the Cimarrons
knowing you've a soft spot for the lad, they'll
not touch him. I'll see to it."
"It's not
a soft spot at all," Jack said,
suggestively.
Gibbs nodded. "I take your
meaning, Jack. But… and meaning no offense, the
Pearl's a lovely wench, but it's not good for a
man to be alone so long, and she don't keep you
very warm at night."
Jack shot him a
glare. "That's what First Mates are for, aren't
they?"
Gibbs smiled at him with a wicked
expression. "Of course they are,
matey."
As Gibbs moved away, Jack went
back to scrutinizing the horizon. This time,
however, his thoughts were filled with all the
possible methods of best educating young William
Turner.
Rum figured quite highly in all
of them.
***
It was with some
disappointment that Will realized his life was
going to consist of grog, salmagundi and rum. He
was aware that boredom and cabin fever were most
likely to be both their companions and enemies
for the duration of the journey. The Black Pearl
was well stocked and armed, and ready for
action, but the company of men she carried
appeared almost too replete and tranquil for a
crew embarking for Madagascar.
He
wondered what their actual destination might be.
Knowing Jack Sparrow, it was some convoluted
pattern of trespasses from one port to another,
undoubtedly helping themselves to whatever ships
they came across in the meantime.
It
wasn't the possible action, or even lack of it,
that worried Will, however. It was the actual
position he held aboard the Pearl. As the
afternoon passed uneventfully and the Pearl made
her graceful, majestic way through the sea, Will
became aware that he was growing antsy from lack
of activity already. This was not good. Not good
at all.
As evening began to fall over the
Caribbean Sea, and the sun slipped down into the
reddened waters, he noticed that most of the men
aboard were getting drunk. Again. They'd begun
after they'd set sail and many of them had
joined in the festivities of departing Tortuga
in fine form. Now it looked as though they were
going to keep it up on into the
night.
Frowning, he wondered how they
hoped to be able to defend the ship if they ran
afoul of any others that might expect some form
of altercation.
He didn't want to
complain, nor did he want to have to argue with
Jack about the dangers of sailing in Caribbean
waters, which were patrolled by nations who
would see the Black Pearl as not only a menace
but a prize, with a crew that was roaringly
stone drunk and most certainly too intoxicated
to defend themselves. He'd heard stories, after
all, of pirate galleons lost to Davy Jones'
Locker due to the Devil's Drink.
As the
hour passed, the men grew more and more
inebriated and the clack of dice on the deck
gave way to stampings and fiddle music and
general out-of-tune songs that more resembled
the caterwauling of unholy spirits.
Jack
would probably think he was being unutterably
stupid.
But he had to call it as he saw
it, and this was one thing that he intended to
have out with Jack.
Surely his father
would not have approved.
And besides,
Jack had said they'd speak later in the evening.
Well, it was evening.
Determined, he
sought the captain out amongst the crew,
ignoring the few invitations and drunken
fumbling thrown in his direction, stepping over
them with ease.
Sure enough, he found
Jack sitting propped against a hogshead of rum,
with a bottle, staring out to where the sun had
set some time before, and the last splashes of
purple still lay scattered on the
waves.
"Captain," Will said, to get his
attention.
"Will," returned Jack,
slurring even that simple name. "Will, Will,
Will. Where therrre's a Will, there will be a
way. Away."
"You're
drunk."
"Aye."
"So is the rest of
the company."
Jack peered at him. "You
aren't."
"No, I'm not."
"Sit down,
lad. You're blocking my -view-."
With a
sigh, Will sank down to join Jack against the
cask. "Jack-"
"Tha's Captain. Captain
Jack," Jack reminded him in long-suffering
tones.
"What are we sailing to Africa
for?"
"Madagascar."
"Yes.
Why?"
Jack turned and stared at him, his
eyes a little wild around the edges. He gestured
loosely with both hands, nearly spilling rum out
of the bottle. "Profit! What else?"
"And
how will we defend ourselves if we are attacked
en route?"
Jack looked back at him, this
time with disgust. "Bloody French again. I'm
getting sick of it. Speak English, Will,
lad."
Will stifled a sigh. "Alright,
along the way, then. Captain, how can we
possibly hope to survive any action at all, if
everyone is too drunk to lift their heads, let
alone their swords or pistols, or to man the
guns?"
Jack sniffed, and said, "Tha's an
excellent, excellent point. I'll drink to
that."
Will had to still the urge to grab
the bottle from Jack. "We will sink. We'll lose,
and the Pearl will be lost. Is that what you
want? Don't you care?"
Jack pointed the
bottle at him. "Why do you care?"
"I like
being alive, and I'd like to stay that way,
thank you very much."
"Aye. It's good to
be alive," Jack agreed. "I'll drink to that
one."
Glumly, Will sat beside him,
wondering if it was worth it after all. "So this
is what it means to be a pirate?"
"Not
how y're goin' 'bout it, 'ts not." Jack nodded
wisely, and a little too slowly. "We're
celebratin', not worryin'. Y're worryin' too
much. That's what the rum's for."
"Oh, is
that what it's for?" Will asked, allowing
himself a note of condescension.
Jack
spread his hands, nearly dropping the bottle,
and said, as if Will had finally figured it all
out, "There you are."
"I have to say,
Jack, I'm really disappointed."
Jack
peered at him in the dim light that flickered
from the torches a good distance away. "Look,
there's only one thing you really need to be
worryin' about, and that's whether or not you're
really a pirate, or not."
"I am a pirate.
You even said I was."
"But you don't
believe it yet."
Bitterly, Will said, "I
don't believe that getting drunk constantly is
going to help my chances of finding
out."
"That's because you haven't tried
it yet," Jack pointed out.
"It's stupid
to do this when the cost could be one's
life."
"It's stupid to worry about
something you don't have any control over."
Jack's slurring had somehow disappeared. "You're
forgetting one very important thing. This is the
Black Pearl. No one, least of all your British
friends, is going to attack us. At night. With
us flying Captain Death up there." Jack nodded
up at the pirate jack that flew, the skull and
crossbones visible and pale even in the
gathering gloom.
Wait… Will peered
upwards. Those were cutlasses, not bones. "Isn't
that Calico Rackham's flag?"
"Jack,"
corrected Jack.
"No, I recognize it; it's
Rackham's."
"Nautical term, Will. It's a
jack."
"But it is
Rackham's."
"That it is," Jack grinned.
"Borrowed it from him, I did."
Will
narrowed his eyes. "Stole, you mean."
"A
capital fellow," Jack agreed. "I daresay I live
up to it's reputation far better, don' you
agree?"
Will sighed. "I don't understand.
I thought that to be a free man, a gentleman of
fortune, one only took risks one was certain of
surviving in the first place."
"Mm. You
took a risk coming aboard. Are you certain
you'll survive?"
"According to you, I am
stupid and nothing more," Will accused, already
having had more than he could take. "As
always."
"No need to get flustered. Have
some rum."
"I don't want any of your
damned rum, Jack! Don't you understand? I'm not
the one slacking, nor am I failing to meet the
requirements of being a crewman aboard your
blasted ship! No one will tell me what I'm to do
here aboard your ship, and now you're drunk
again. I tried to talk to you last night but you
were already passed out."
"Son, this rum
is hardly damned. In fact, I take offense at the
very suggestion that drinking my rum could
possibly result in the damnation of you, or any
man. Or any woman, for that matter. Why, even -
even -" Jack cast his eyes about them, to
attempt to find another recipient for imbibing.
His eyes lit up. "Why, Cotton's parrot would
handle this rum well-enough."
"It's the
Devil's Drink," Will muttered, angry that Jack
was avoiding the issue. So what was new?
Stewing, Will stood and went to the edge, leaned
both hands against the side and stared down into
the rushing waves below without really seeing
them. "I can't stand the stuff. It's everywhere,
in everything. In you. Even the grog. Especially
the grog."
"True enough; I won't contest
that. Tha's what grog -is-. It's the principle,
lad. And for once, the French are not to blame."
Jack grinned, happily. "Fancy
that."
"What have the French got to do
with it?"
"Nothing, that's the point. Was
the first sailors out this way started the
fashion of spiking their water with it.
Bootleggers simply thought it a bloody marvelous
idea. Which it was. Lucrative as well. Because
most men prefer it straight. Most pirates
anyway."
"Jack, I'm curious. When did you
turn from grog to rum? Because that may be the
general time in your no-doubt fascinating
history that you finally lost it."
Jack
took a healthy swig and seemed to be considering
Will's question. "Let's see. It was when I lost
it."
"What?"
"The Pearl. When I
lost the Pearl," Jack repeated,
impatiently.
As this illumination dawned
on Will, he began to see Jack's rum in
perspective. "I see."
Jack smiled. "Good
lad. Smart lad. Knew you would,
eventually."
Will sighed. "Give me the
bottle then."
"Why?"
"Because I'm
stupid. And I'm going to join you in a
drink."
Jack held up the bottle and
checked how much he had left. Handing the bottle
to Will, he suggested, "The key to surviving
this, you see, is knowing when to drink, and
when not to."
The fiery liquid scalded a
trail down his throat as Will swallowed and
gasped, "I'm starting to see that."
"Knew
you would."
"You love her," Will
observed, unnecessarily.
"Who?"
"This ship."
"Love a lot of
ships. All ships."
"This one, Jack. The
Pearl."
"Always have, always will. She's
mine, you see, and I'm hers. Let no man sunder,
and all that."
Will drank again, letting
the rum lend him some courage, and cautiously
licked his lips. "Does she mean more to you than
a man's life?"
"Will, lad, you gave me my
life and 'elped me escape from my cozy little
cell back in Port Royal in exchange for a ship
and passage to find your lass, if you'll
recall."
Will hastily knocked back
another stiff swig at this reminder. For it was
true. Even Elizabeth had mentioned it, and she
hadn't exactly been proud of him for it,
either.
"Question is, then, does being a
pirate mean more to -you - than another man's
life?" Jack pointed out, irritatingly sober all
of a sudden.
"I had assumed it was in a
good cause," Will admitted, frowning at his own
reprehensible selfishness. "You were right,
Jack. Not all treasure is gold."
"Now,
don't fret," Jack said, laying a hand on Will's
arm. "Love's a worthy cause, to be sure. And
freedom is worth even more."
"So you love
freedom most of all."
"And you're free to
love," Jack smiled.
Jack's hand on his
arm still rested there, and it was warm. Hot, in
fact. Hot like the rum inside of him, and the
rum was joined now in his belly with that
curious, twisting sensation of excitement and
trepidation. Will hastily took another gulp,
hoping to cover this awkward nervousness with
it.
Jack removed his hand and Will was
suddenly bereft. It had only been a friendly
gesture, yet somehow it meant more to him than
he'd ever have imagined. It had to be the rum.
It had to be. After all, Elizabeth's hands had
never affected him like that. He scowled at the
bottle. It didn't help at all. The rum wasn't
helping either.
After all, Jack Sparrow
had the perpetual drunken manner of leaning into
people's personal space on principle, and Will
had never realized that it wasn't exactly meant
to be offensive, but friendly to the point of
being offensive. There was something in that. If
only he could figure out what it was.
He
couldn't stand this. He needed to get away from
him. From Jack. From this pirate captain who had
suddenly revealed to him, even all unwitting
himself of it, as Will's role model. After all,
his father was dead, gone, lost to him because
of Barbossa's and his undead crew's treachery.
Jack Sparrow had known Bootstrap. Even before he
became Bootstrap.
And the rum loosened a
stray thought from the depths of his brain and
allowed it to float into view. Had Jack known
his father… well? Very well? Were they friends?
Well, more than friends? He jerked. It was too
much. He couldn't be thinking this. He had to
stop. After all he -liked- Jack.
OH no.
No, no no. That was no good; because it
immediately brought to mind the question: how
much had his father liked Jack, and how much did
Jack like him, or was it, how much did Jack
like-
"Give us the bottle back. Ta." Jack
looked up as Will stood rather too hastily,
swaying from the effects of the liquor. "Where
you off to?"
"I'm going to find Gibbs and
ask him to give me an appointment as a member of
your crew. If that's alright with
you."
Jack shrugged. "You only had to
ask, eh?"
Will sighed wearily through his
nose, not understanding Jack's cryptic comment
at all, and not really caring at this point. He
went to seek out Gibbs.
He found the man
sitting on the other side of the ship,
starboard, leaning against the wall and knocking
back ale.
"You as well," Will
said.
"Me?" Gibbs asked.
"Never
mind. I'm here to ask after my position aboard
the Black Pearl."
Gibbs squinted at him.
"Didn't Jack tell you?"
"No, he didn't.
It's impossible, talking to him."
Gibbs
shrugged. "That's right enough. But maybe he's
not had enough rum."
"He's had too
much."
"No, Will, lad; see, it works in
reverse with ole Jack. He doesn't talk none too
well without it."
Will exhaled. "Aren't
you worried that a passing ship we come across
may decide to attack us? We're flying the jolly
roger. It still seems dangerous to me, for every
man aboard to be dead-drunk."
Gibbs had
choked on his ale, and now Will saw it was with
laughter. "Will, you're a good sort. Attack the
Pearl? No one'll dare. Why, you know as well as
I, just what Barbossa's crew accomplished during
his kidnapping and ransom of Jack's love,
'ere."
Curious, Will asked him, "Has Jack
ever loved anything besides the
Pearl?"
Gibbs pondered this. "Aye, Jack's
first love is the Pearl, but his second is
rum."
"Yes, rum. I'm well acquainted with
his love of rum," Will said, dryly. "Isn't there
anything else?"
Confused, Gibbs said,
"Well, what else is there? Treasure? Freedom?
-Is- there anything else?"
Aware his
mouth was running away from him because of the
rum, Will was still unable to stop wondering
aloud, "Well, what else does he love besides the
ship and his rum, and freedom and
treasure?"
Obviously fancying that he'd
solved some puzzle, Gibbs pointed out, "Ah, but
the Pearl is freedom, to Jack."
"And rum
is his treasure," Will said, caustically. "What
was his third love? Doesn't he value anything
else? Like, what was he
before?"
"Before?"
"Before he
turned pirate."
Gibbs took a deep breath,
and then stopped, perplexed. "Can't say's I
rightly know. Jack," Gibbs called out. For Jack
was picking his way towards them, stepping over
the occasional slouched body hampering his
progress. "Jack, the boy's asking me a most
mysterious question and I can't answer yea or
nay."
Will grabbed his arm. "No, no,
don't-"
It was too late. Jack had already
meandered over to where they stood and looked
from Gibbs to Will, and back again. "Wha's the
question?" He sounded unstable.
Will
sighed. Jack was still very drunk. Again. It
seemed to come and go over time. Sometimes
changing within a period of minutes. Will was
beginning to suspect that Jack wasn't sober
unless he was slightly drunk, and that Gibbs was
right.
"What's yer third love?" Gibbs
asked.
Jack frowned. "My
what?"
"Well, everyone knows you love the
Pearl."
"And rum," Will put
in.
"My third love was -" Jack stopped.
"Can't rightly recall, now that you mention it.
Her name might have been Rosie. Or was it
Henrietta?" He shook a finger at Gibbs. "Aye,
that was it! It was Henri- Hen-Henry. That's it.
Henry. She was fine. Or was it
he?"
"Henrietta," Will corrected. In
spite of being aware that most pirates hardly
adhered to the strict social rules regarding
same-sex relationships, Will could feel his
cheeks going hot and was grateful for the
merciful cover of darkness. It was far too
disturbing to begin examining his feelings
regarding Jack's… past. Or his predilections,
for that matter.
Come to think of it, he
didn't want to start thinking of his own,
because there was the horrible sensation of
excitement just being near Jack like this.
Thanks to the damned rum. And he'd never felt
this hot and feverish before with Elizabeth. He
sighed.
"That's the one," Jack agreed.
Then he grinned, the gold flashing opaquely in
the flickering light. "He was a pretty sort of a
likely lad. Like Will, here."
Gibbs was
frowning. "No, that's not right."
Jack
gave him a warning look. "You weren't there. I'd
most absolutely, definitely remember if you
were. T'was Henriella."
"That was
Isabella, and I -was- there."
Will rolled
his eyes and folded his arms across his chest.
Useless. Completely and utterly useless. He
began to reconsider the advantages of becoming a
'free man.' Then he began to equally weigh the
advantages of joining them in the rum, as there
was little else to do aboard,
anyway.
"No, you weren't." Jack shook his
head, slowly. "Not with Henry."
"Not who,
but what. What was yer third love?" Gibbs
repeated.
"Now see here, Gibbs, you're a
good man," Jack swayed and leaned out with a
hand, steadying himself by clutching at Gibbs'
shoulder. "A good man. But I'll not stand for
anyone implying the likes of anything of the
sort that you're implying."
"Not that
you can stand very well at the moment, in any
case," Will put in.
Jack considered this.
"V'ry true. But then, I would have absolutely,
definitely and positively remembered if I'd
loved a what, rather than a who. The real
question is, who's asking, what?" He began to
giggle.
Unfortunately, Gibbs joined him
with an unhinged chuckle that ensured neither
one was going to be of any use
whatsoever.
For which Will was supremely
grateful at the moment, seeing as they appeared
to have left any semblance of sobriety behind
along with the original
question.
"William, my lad, you don't
look v'ry happy. Methinks you need more
rum."
"Or ale, which is good for what
ails you," Gibbs remarked.
"Jack, if we
meet another ship in these waters, on this
course and heading, we'll be severely
compromised. Everyone's too drunk to defend the
Pearl, let alone themselves." Will was unhappy
still with the irresponsibility, as he saw
it.
Jack shot a knowing look at Gibbs who
gave a little nod. "What'd I tell you? First
Mate. Caring about all our welfare. The one
sober man aboard." Jack turned and had
apparently decided that Will would be a much
better implement for keeping his balance than
Gibbs was, for he transferred his arm to Will's
shoulder. "I've thought it over, and you can
stay."
"What would you have done if you'd
have decided I couldn't?" Will
muttered.
"Dropped you off somewhere,
most likely." Jack halted, and nodded.
"Recife."
Will raised a brow. "I thought
we were bound for Madagascar."
Gibbs
drained the last of his ale. "We'll need to
restock our supplies. It's not that far out of
our way."
Will blinked. "How long will
our lay-over be?"
"Eh?" Jack and Gibbs
both asked.
"How long will we be in
port?" Will re-stated.
Jack looked at
Gibbs and grinned evilly. "A very proper First
Mate."
"Aye, 'e is," Gibbs agreed.
"You'll do well, Will."
"Not a
ne'er-do-well, our Will."
"Nor an
unwilling one, neither," Gibbs said.
"Because where there's Will, there's a
way." Jack considered Will. "Then again, he's
most unwilling to drink with us."
Will
laughed, letting his head fall back. He took a
breath of the night air, with the salty scent
and the ever-pervasive rum. "Very well, take me
to the rum. If you can't beat them, join them.
Is that it?"
"Something like that," Jack
said, his drunken slur receding with alarming
pace as he eyed
Will.
TBC IN CHAPTER 2
(Aug 9, 2003)